If you looked up FUBAR you'd find my picture

For anyone interested...

I know my blogging on ROBsessed has been sporadic and I've ignored e-mails for over a month now and I sincerely apologize. Had a bit of a setback and had to go back to the hosp and with all the fuzzy meds I've been on lately, I'm...well...a bit fuzzy.

Then my new comp caught a virus and a friend had some fancy anti virus installed on it and it wiped my computer clean. I can't access anything because my new comp doesn't recognize my passwords or some such shit (something about disabled cookies? huh?) and so...I'm back to using the old comp that moves slower than I do at the moment, but at least it recognizes me. I'm trying to get back into this discus thing and I can't do it. I reregistered and it told me I'm in, but I've tried to log onto the blog and it won't let me. So...I'm going to ask RPG to tell anyone who's interested to come look here on my profile (and that I'm going to bite the bullet and put my e-mail up here cause I really got to get ahold of SarahBear) and read this AND I've been going back through my e-mails and I'm just overwhelmed by them. You guys are incredible. I just don't know what to say and for me...that's something. And jessyh, if you're reading this, I'll get to that incredible e-mail you sent to me just as soon as I can.

I'm going to try to get on a plane in a couple of days to attend my niece's wedding. Probably not a good idea (with breathing problems and an on fire hip that won't let me sit for too long), but I cannot miss my girl's wedding. Not acceptable. Only way it would be is if I was in the ground. Actually, I'm not going into the ground. I've requested a viking funeral, but that's another post. That in all liklihood will never be posted. So then...bear with here, I've been on painkillers for weeks and I'm as fuzzy as the fuzzy end of a lollipop.

Mainly I just wanted to let those who have e-mailed me that I will get back to you. You too lalli. It's just gonna take me a little more time. I'm just so confused. Trying to work from two computers; one barely moves but recognizes my passwords, the other works like a dream but won't let me get into anything (even my e-mail) and this discus is driving me nuts. It's says I'm registerd but it won't let me onto the blog. I don't know. But anyway, for those who would like to, please contact me at...

barbaramary2131@yahoo.com.

Thanks you guys. You're so amazingly sweet to me. I don't know why but you are and it means so much to me. Don't know that I'll ever be able to express just how much.

Love,
Nik